Sunday, 4 September 2011
5:10:00 pm
Hi, i did not think I would post anything here but I feel...I had whined, complained, blurted out much on this blog and i would like say things here. at this moment.
i talked about him so much here and i'm not saying this because i have no one to turn to, but after all these months after the break up i bet people are quite tired if i carry on talking about him. recently, on friday, he surprisingly went to Nadzri's house, well with the so called nice F... i was thinking bout our times when i received the text and yeah somehow i felt weird.. i know i know, i am not over him, i am not over you... the least i can do now is to be okay and live my life. i'm trying not to think of you so much.. insya Allah with time...i can totaaly forget you.. i cannot cry the way i cried for you anymore. that is good... but somehow, not crying...it feels like the pain is stuck there somewhere.. i am doing better... i am... it is a good thing that i cry very little nowadays compared to those days when you made me upset... i should indeed be thankful that i ended it before we go even deeper.. before we go further... it's just... i can't help not to miss you sometimes... i can't help hoping things stay wonderful for both of us... i wish my mind has a delete button so i can erase the memories. those memories with you are what still holding me...
you taught me quite a good lesson... somehow...
somehow i just hope you do realize what have you thrown aside... i am not the greatest thing that could or have ever happened to you... and certainly i hope you won't think i am the worst thing that had ever occurred to you... but you just threw away one of the people who love you for who you are,who care for you, who gave you more than you give... the least i hope could happen so i'd be at ease is this...
