Friday 12 November 2010
7:11:00 am
Salam and Hello peeps. I am quite sleepy and i feel like cuddling in my bed. Friday is my cuddling day I suppose. Lol. Anyway, i wanna update my blog that I am at Usu's house with free wifi at the moment. Lolness.
Anyhow, I would like to thank to everyone who greeted me on my birthday. I appreciate and love all the greetings. :) Once again, I thank C3 for the surprised cake, gift and card :) I had a nice time on my birthday. No big celebration on that day but I am truly grateful to spend the night with my beloved man, Mahmud Zuhdi a.k.a Mr K:p Thanks for staying with me till the clock hit 12 :) And thanks too for the gifts. I love them. simply :) I pray may you have a safe and nice trip in Jakarta :) imy :)
Next, uummm, I get in touch with a friend and I am truly glad that we are somehow cool :) We even plan to meet up someday, most probably after exams and tests thingy? hee. I like that :) admittedly, keeping aside all the arguments and crisis I do miss having certain people in my life :) And this friend is one of these people :) i like it when we talked as if nothing ever came up between us. burying the hatchet feels good. it is indeed a good thing. :)
Tomorrow night I am not going to join my fellow ex school friends after all. my family is going to gather at Usu's house tomorrow. Tehee. I want spend some quality time with my family. :)
Think I am done talking for now. Good day people.
-zy19-
Saturday 6 November 2010
4:28:00 pm
BIRTHDAYS:
It's 7th Nov 10, happy belated birthday to Faizal aka Pak Ijal. May Allah bless thee with happiness, success, longevity and prosperity with beloved wife^^, thanks for the pizza treat and the marvellous carbonara made by his wife, sis Ruby. I also thank C3 family for the surprise advanced birthday cake and gift earlier. That was totally definitely unexpected. :D i totally like the night gown u guys get me. Hehe. So I guess i unofficially turns 21st already? 3 days in advance? Lolness.;)
AOB:
It doesn't feel good to turn down people when they were counting on you. I'd be glad to do certain things for the sake of old times. But i can't. The feelings are somewhat feel more sucks when it appears to be..well,it seems like the biasness isn't worth it. True, i am indecisive. A lot of time, I am.
Certain of the acts bother me because i wish they were... Well,never mind.
Alright, enough talking i suppose. Im off.
Again,thanks C3 for the pleasant surprise. xoxo
Cautious. Yep.
Goodnight.
Friday 5 November 2010
1:48:00 pm
Salam. Hi. Alright, I want to reread Narnia books again. I wish I have the books with me. I wish I can get every single copy of the book. the old version. not the compiled one. Hmmph. I especially love the fifth book, the voyage of the dawn treader. i never got bored reading Narnia books. And I think I pretty much enjoy the movies as well. Usually there are bound to be disappointment when a book is made into a movie. like the twilight saga and even some of the Harry Potter bits. But Narnia. I totally enjoy the books as well as the movies. The characters kind of fit and match with my imagination? Hehe. The four siblings. Aslan. the white witch. the talking animals. Gahh. I miss reading the chronicles of Narnia. ReallY :'(
Alright, what else is there I wanna talk about? Hmmph, I don't know. lol. I went out with my cousin today. I basically feel kind of fresh. i think. but not totally 'refresh'. Constant Salsa would do I suppose. I am so looking forward for Salsa. There are things I kind of hoping would take place. I am thinking of holidays or vacation anyway. But I need not to think or hope much on vacation. For one thing we need to get through exams first before any leisure moments. but yeah I'd commit suicide if I do not get the best of time during the semester break. Lol. Exaggerating much ;) But yeah I am counting on Dec to have a good time.
What else? Umm, umm, tomorrow is Faizal's birthday and he is treating us Pizza (delivery) and we are buying cake and a gift for him. Somehow cannot wait to see his reaction on receiving the thoughtful gift :p And tomorrow night I might meet a friend. A friend who said has been missing me. I should see that friend for the sake of friendship. I suppose so. I haven't really confirmed it yet :)
Hmmph, I am pretty much idea-less now. I mean I might just end up mumbling if i start talking so yeah. i better stop. read a book i suppose. or just straightly get into bed :)
So goodnight and I hope tomorrow would be a good day. oh yeah talking about day, it has been rather a pack week for us. assignments. test. revision. teaching. tiring much but i somehow like it :)
i will learn slowly i suppose. no, i must. if it is to be it is up to me?
Tuesday 2 November 2010
5:15:00 pm
Salam, it 12.33 AM already and I just finished doing my Dental Histology assignment. Wait, I am not totally done with it. I haven't included one tiny detail and I will insert it tomorrow morning? Err. Yeah. I tried to finish it asap so i can blog before going to bed. Lolness. I am not so sure what were the things that I pretty much and desperately want to put here. Right. I am just quite tired to put too much detail at this very moment. Okay okay, I should really get to the point :)
I love this kind of productiveness. somehow. staying up late doing something really productive :D Not just that it takes my mind off things but it makes me feel good. somehow. :) This kind of times somehow... I don't know. It just makes me feel good. and somehow useful? Lol. I feel like I am seeking for something i have left behind? Did not i feel like this a lot back then? Back as in a year or so ago? Six form time? Yeah. Kind of. I somehow tend to automatically recall things in the past when I feel like to. I mean it just occurs out of sudden. I dwell into the past. I think a lot. true lot and parts of those thoughts that i have might actually are not necessary? i know but i could not help it. :)
I know very well that I am quite transparent. as in I cannot lie well, i cannot pretend well. I cannot hide my reactions well. i am pretty much expressive, i think. but somehow i cannot help wondering, does anyone really know me in particular? i guess so. but at times i feel like no one truly knows me well. i suppose this assumption comes out when people don't or can't get what i am trying to say or what is that i want. i can't blame them because i myself cannot be sure what is that i really want at most times. i think complicated? i suppose judging on few 'testimonials' i could not agree less. or more. lol. i am not proud to be complicated, difficult, selfish or etc etc etc. i am tactless at times? like i should think before i say out things? sigh. okay, confession. I HARDLY say NO to people. I do not feel right to say no to people without even trying or putting some effort to give whatever it is that they want. i thought i was just being nice with this kind of behaviour and i did not see that this actually may make things becoming even bad? i wish i can say no to people at times but then.., bla bla bla. out of ten occasions i only manage to say NO like...umm 3 out of 10 situations?i easily feel dejected or rejected when i feel like people do things for me out of their willingness. like the moment i got the slightest bit of hints that i am a burden, i... i automatically back myself off. everyone wants to feel as if they are needed. but then if people do not truly want us should we stay and bug them? i think not.
i am not totally being rejected. no, i am not. but before i got fully rejected, i should take early caution right? i wanna stay on the safe line and i am not sure how i am gonna do that. one of the things, i need not get angry or mad. or resented. getting upset is okay. plus it is unavoidable. and i am not saying this as if i am taking that no one appreciates me. no. of course there are :) just for particular today, i am thankful to have those who feel me. i know i can over react at most of the times. for one thing i cry pretty much easy. well, a friend once said it is one of the ways to express emotions? lol. when i am really mad i end up crying. when i am really happy i end up crying. so for good or bad reasons i just cry. silly much? no comment. :)
at times i keep things to myself and did not blurt it out to some particular people because..well, for one thing, things that we say can change the way things are badly? and in the end i'd regret for saying those things out.
Alright, I should be getting into bed now. tomorrow gonna be a 'heavy' day. Dental histology and skeletal system? i'd surely need enough rest to keep up with tomorrow lectures :)
i really hope when i wake up the next day i'd feel better. not that anything bad did really happen but still, i wanna be.. well i'd just keep that last part to myself.
goodnight earthlings. :)
