Monday 27 September 2010
11:51:00 pm
The ways we behave and the words we say, they could hurt others not just a bit, but a lot...
Friday 24 September 2010
4:24:00 am
Okay, here it is. I am not sure how to begin my post. LOL. I meant to update my blog like days ago? week ago? Tehee. Anyway, salam and a very good Friday morning to you. Well, I do hope it is gonna be a good Friday. LOL.
Alright, I might as well start with Raya updates. It's the 3rd week or Raya, umm wait, is it 3rd or still 2nd week of Raya? huhu. lol. I am not quite sure. hence this somehow shows how not quite 'committed' or 'excited' I am during this Raya. LOL. Raya isn't that bad. It isn't. It is okay. Okay, I am not sure how do I feel about Raya. I feel indifferent. Forgive me, but it feels like... it is just an occassion. I don't really feel so special about it. I did kind of picture Raya this year gonna be special. yeah, somehow. but then, truth be told it's quite... err plain? It was not totally boring but... okay okay, I am mumbling now. Perhaps my current mood contributes to this less enthusiasm for Raya. :) Anyway, I went to Miri to visit Aunt Diah last Friday? Eh, last two weeks, with family. Abang Anip and Zuhdi joined us too. It was nice to see Aunt Diah and spend some quality time with beloved people :) The next day I went raya-ing with Zuhdi at KB. it was something different. well, quite. Anyhow, I really like Ami, Mr Zam Kaderi's daughter. :) I did have convoy moments with my fellow friends. It was nice but there were not lots of us. I'd say it was different from last year. For one thing, Eham was not there with us. *Sigh. I see very little of him. we all do. Wait, we hear very little from him and in fact I never see him anymore. Well, Eham though you are not reading this, we miss you buddy :)
Another thing, something good out of this Raya is that... I think I pretty much buried the hatchet with a friend. I used to think that it is a fullstop for us but I am truly glad that things turn out to be better than I thought :) Though to get back to the old times sounds a bit impractical to do. this is good enough. my point is, we are letting by gone be by gone. :)
What else? Ahh, I'm having my OSCE in less than 2 weeks time. And yeah, I should be freaking out by now considering there are lots of things to be covered. I need to revise Dental Anatomy and General Anatomy pretty serious. Hence, shopping plans and any other leisure outings are to be postponed after
6th October 2010. Lol. But really!
What else? Umm, random; I'm fluctuate. I think so. I change my mind quite easily and get influenced easily. lol. Anyway, this lately...I think i am quite lost? and there is something nagging me but i could not truly identify it and hence I barely can work it out.I don't feel like sorting myself out. I am not sure what is wrong so yeah. Plus I am having this OSCE coming so soon so, I know better which one should be my priority at the moment :) Someone commented to me that I haven't changed a bit. well, it was a random statement, I think so that person didn't really mean what he said. I think but yet, it keeps on tuning in my mind. How can he think that he knows me better than I do? I am not mad. It just occurs to me :) Or what if he actually does? Okay, I am making such a big deal out if this .Lol. I just got this issue of not knowing how do I actually feel or want that I take people words into account.:) Emotions and rationality barely get along well.
Alright I think I have talked much. I better stop :) Have a good day people :))
Simple yet complicated.
Tuesday 7 September 2010
2:54:00 am
Hello, Salam :D I was just doing some research for my assignments just now. I kind of want to get things done before Raya. Oh yeah, Raya, soon. Like 3 or 4 days to go? Tehee. Umm, I am not sure how do I actually feel about this coming Raya. I just feel a bit good because it is an event? Like something to look forward for? Though I could not actually foresee any kind of extravaganza stuffs going on during Raya. Well, aside from convoy with family and friends? And Raya with him. Okay, lemme rephrase my perspective. I am not so giddy about coming Raya but then I just hope things would be nice and smooth during this Raya. Not just for me but for everyone. :) It is gonna be another Raya
without our beloved Dad. Al-Fatihah to him... May Allah blessed his soul and ditempatkanlah roh nya di kalangan org yg beriman. Amiin. We miss him and alhamdullilah lives are getting better. Life isn't perfect yet I think my family is doing okay. There are some things that..err..umm, not the good good or nice ones? but then what matters is we can cope.:)
What else? I am quite grateful at the moment. I mean I am now sort of sure about something and I really pray to Allah to let things go smoothly :) I had two good consecutive times ,on last Saturday and Sunday that is, with Mahmud Zuhdi :) I love you:)
Errrmm, I think I should stop here, I gotta get back to my assignment :)
Have a good day people :)
Wednesday 1 September 2010
2:32:00 pm
"it's
1st September and I'd like to wish my beloved man a happy 22nd Birthday :) This is like the fourth greeting already? though i don't think he is reading this :) Anyho, I pray for your happiness, longevity and prosperity. May you would achieve success in everything you do. Amiin amiin Ya Rabbal Alamin :)
I hope I did not spoil your day with the KB thingy. It was my bad. I'm sorry.
I was really happy to receive an unexpected call from you this morning. I have missed you so much.
I love you. "
General blogging:
It's less than two weeks for Raya and I feel like... time flies so fast. I tried to recall things that I have gone through and things that have been taking place so far and most of them I prefer not to recall. Truth be told, I seriously feel I am soo.. what is the words? umm, I change my mind easily? no, not easily. Indecisive. yes. That is the best adjective to describe me. I kind of have made up my mind about something. something that somehow would tear me inside but for the sake of 'self-defense' i pushed my self to be so determined about it. but then, truth be told, I am never ready for such decision. it is not something I would like to do. it is not my dearest wish. i just thought of it based on rationality. i thought i was really determined. determination can only be achieved if nothing can affect one person's decision. sighh. i cannot decide.
okay, enough whining. it does not feel any good. umm, lectures today were..okay and quite interesting. i actually laughed sincerely during DK Jr's lecture today. Dk Jr was not so mean today. seemed to be in a good mood. lol. i would not take that for granted next week. lol. Dr Yati, she is truly adorable. no kidding. it is almost impossible
not to like her. Banar. :) DK didn't talk much today. I mean she is a bit serious today. we somehow funnily fear her. heh. she is okay. just a lil strict? hehe. last week lecture was kinda hilarious.and admittedly fun ;)
What else? Umm, on this coming Sunday as I mentioned before I am going out for Sungkai gathering with some school fellows. Original plan is to join for bowling with them but Zudi is inviting me to go to a seminar with him. And I invited him to join us during the Sungkai. I hope he won't cancel on me. I know better not to be so sure but again, I cannot help myself not to hope.
Okay, what else? Ida is bringing me to join her friends for Sungkai tomorrow and actually invited me to sleepover at her Aunt's house. I am not so sure whether i can make it. something is wrong with my car's brake. seriously, i never truly like cars. i don't prefer to get bothered and spend on car thingy. i don't find it worth my money. lol.anyway, usu most probably would sort it out by tomorrow. so, i'll see. at least i can accompany Ida having sungkai?
Umm, I think I am pretty much idea-less now. Till here then? Goodnight and may tomorrow be a better day. No, let September be a month full of happiness and nice moments? I am counting on that. -__-
Caio.
"the thing is, i can only see him, no one else"
