Friday, 24 September 2010
4:24:00 am
Okay, here it is. I am not sure how to begin my post. LOL. I meant to update my blog like days ago? week ago? Tehee. Anyway, salam and a very good Friday morning to you. Well, I do hope it is gonna be a good Friday. LOL.
Alright, I might as well start with Raya updates. It's the 3rd week or Raya, umm wait, is it 3rd or still 2nd week of Raya? huhu. lol. I am not quite sure. hence this somehow shows how not quite 'committed' or 'excited' I am during this Raya. LOL. Raya isn't that bad. It isn't. It is okay. Okay, I am not sure how do I feel about Raya. I feel indifferent. Forgive me, but it feels like... it is just an occassion. I don't really feel so special about it. I did kind of picture Raya this year gonna be special. yeah, somehow. but then, truth be told it's quite... err plain? It was not totally boring but... okay okay, I am mumbling now. Perhaps my current mood contributes to this less enthusiasm for Raya. :) Anyway, I went to Miri to visit Aunt Diah last Friday? Eh, last two weeks, with family. Abang Anip and Zuhdi joined us too. It was nice to see Aunt Diah and spend some quality time with beloved people :) The next day I went raya-ing with Zuhdi at KB. it was something different. well, quite. Anyhow, I really like Ami, Mr Zam Kaderi's daughter. :) I did have convoy moments with my fellow friends. It was nice but there were not lots of us. I'd say it was different from last year. For one thing, Eham was not there with us. *Sigh. I see very little of him. we all do. Wait, we hear very little from him and in fact I never see him anymore. Well, Eham though you are not reading this, we miss you buddy :)
Another thing, something good out of this Raya is that... I think I pretty much buried the hatchet with a friend. I used to think that it is a fullstop for us but I am truly glad that things turn out to be better than I thought :) Though to get back to the old times sounds a bit impractical to do. this is good enough. my point is, we are letting by gone be by gone. :)
What else? Ahh, I'm having my OSCE in less than 2 weeks time. And yeah, I should be freaking out by now considering there are lots of things to be covered. I need to revise Dental Anatomy and General Anatomy pretty serious. Hence, shopping plans and any other leisure outings are to be postponed after
6th October 2010. Lol. But really!
What else? Umm, random; I'm fluctuate. I think so. I change my mind quite easily and get influenced easily. lol. Anyway, this lately...I think i am quite lost? and there is something nagging me but i could not truly identify it and hence I barely can work it out.I don't feel like sorting myself out. I am not sure what is wrong so yeah. Plus I am having this OSCE coming so soon so, I know better which one should be my priority at the moment :) Someone commented to me that I haven't changed a bit. well, it was a random statement, I think so that person didn't really mean what he said. I think but yet, it keeps on tuning in my mind. How can he think that he knows me better than I do? I am not mad. It just occurs to me :) Or what if he actually does? Okay, I am making such a big deal out if this .Lol. I just got this issue of not knowing how do I actually feel or want that I take people words into account.:) Emotions and rationality barely get along well.
Alright I think I have talked much. I better stop :) Have a good day people :))
Simple yet complicated.
