Friday, 21 May 2010
7:00:00 am
Salam~hi~when was the last time I updated my blog? few weeks ago? that feels so...umm..lama? Lol. hehe. anyway, i just finished my class and thought that I would stay for a while and update my blog :D
There were few few things that I feel like sharing here. but since i am kinda eager to go home due to starvation so i will just try to keep my post brief :p hehe.
I have done my maths P1 and P3 and English Lit P32. Maths P1 was quite easy, P4...ummm..macam apa~lol and lit...okay lah. err, well, not so okay thinking that I did not do any revision or put any effort on poetry. The prose section was okay, at least I do have some knowledge on one of the books, compared to last year I just blindly did the essay without reading the book itself. okay, enough complaining :))
Last Sunday we had Usu Bini's birthday party. it was nice and pretty much last minute. hehe. i guess last minute genes just generate through my family :p i'm talking bout my mum's side, of course. :) anyway, my boyfriend and I last minute looked for a gift and he bought Lancome Paris perfume for usu bini, my mum bought her a purse-last minute and my cousin bought her glucose detector device and Abg Anip bought a BBQ grilled set, lurus ka tu? hehe. Abg Anip's family, Angah's and mine of course were there during the function. it was a success. the food was nice, the gathering was nice. i'd say things just went smoothly. most importantly, usu bini was definitely happy :D
something which was not in the 'plan' took place on that night anyway. honestly speaking, initially, i felt totally betrayed and mad by that additional 'event' but later on i felt grateful. well, i am grateful. i am grateful though it is partly responsible for putting me in misery during the last few days.
oh yes, i have been feeling quite depressed back in the last few days. i feel as if my heart is swelling, that was what i pretty much had been feeling back in few days ago. but now, no thanks. i am very determined not to let things like that bring me down macam apa :) one upsetting thing should not have the power to deny me any other happiness and excitements. it is just plain not healthy. =)
alright, what else? oh yeah, just something to share. somewhere last week, a person, whom i thought would never ever wants to see my face ever again,just spent almost three hours talking with me. it was quite surprising yet it was just nice. i mean, not that i want anything from that person or something. it is just purely nice to know that we are cool. no resentment on my part and on ia punya side jua, seems to be ;). it is just nice to see that we can become friends again. i have known better that some things are just not meant to be no matter how hard you push it to work out :)
oh yeah, one more thing, the dentistry nursing tu? i was kinda worried that i might find difficulty to adapt the whole thing without people called 'friends' and now i am justtttt happpppyyyy, purely happy to know that Nazirah Sabeli, same intake with me during A level, got the same offer jua:D i won't be totally friendless then. hehe. she texted me last night and she said too that she is glad :D now, this piece of news is just another good thing that ease out my depressing mood :D anyway, i just need to go to Ong Sum Ping lagi. idk what am i supposed to do or get from there ;0 but yeah, i want to get started. well, a bit. hehe. part of me still wanna have more leisure time with Bolly, Salsa, movies and books :p
it is someone's birthday today. a person i no longer regard as a friend. for reasons i don't have to mention here. anyway, i greeted her. i have been thinking about this and yes i indeed texted her up and i said i forgive her and i ask her to forgive me for any wrongs i have done. i don't mean any harm on doing this. being on a good term with the person i mentioned above just makes me think of letting by gone be by gone. i am not seeking for friendship when i texted this once upon a time friend of mine. it just feels right. no harm done. she does not reply my text, that is totally fine thinking that i myself did not repond to her text last year. =)
okay, did i actually say i would keep this post short and brief? haha, i got carried away with talkativeness. hehe. anyway, i just wanna say, i feel better. better than yesterday. better than the last few days. i know i am quite...err..oversensitive with things at times? well, i am not proud to be cematu and i don't expect people to understand me when i behave childishly but yeah, that is just me and...and apanah? lol. i'm lost for words now :p
ertinya suruh beranti blogging and go home now. haha. goddd~ now i feel like the normal me. i feel quite bright. :p
when it seems to be worthless, it just does not seem right to me to just keep waiting, wishing or hoping that certain things or action will take place. so i just need to move on and live my life. life is quite short to be wasted on depression, sadness and frustration. :D i know i can be complicated and i am not proud of it but that should not put me on eternity misery. trouble is friend, trouble is a foe =)
Good day people! :D i wanna do serious revision on maths later. hehe. i hope :p. habis maths nyaman tah dikit rasaku nie :D
p/s: i love them, them i love. lol. =) and he's one of them =]
