Tuesday, 19 January 2010
2:37:00 pm
I was kind of starting to think that Tuesday might be my lucky day since good things seemed to happen a lot on Tuesdays. Lol. Anyway, I have enough of superstitions stuff for now. Things are UNPREDICTABLE. Heh. Pissed off.
Anyway, I am absolutely okay at the moment. I wandered on my own after sending my sis to the cyber. I drove to the beach. I stayed outside Surau,listening to Azan and recital of few Surah. And I cried on my way to Tutong town again. I talked to myself. And less than 10 mins I felt better, a lot better. Then I went to Sg. Tutong,trying to recall the pictures of my dad. I was trying to have some sentimental moments when one guy shh-shh me. Like hello, can't I have some peace here? So I drove home. Taking the longer route and I simply noticed my mood improved a great deal. I even felt like I was over reacting.
*sigh. I would not rather call today as a great day because...well,it seemed like I failed to do most things right today. I'm just quite grateful that I have few people who can put my mind at ease. I'm talking about my work place of course. I'm glad to have Ricky, Wani,Ka Lela and Pei Juan to always make me feel at ease. I can be myself. Especially Ricky. Dude, I'm starting to think you'd be a wonderful co worker. *sigh. Does it hurt the others to make me feel comfortable? I was kinda glad that Irene texted me at fb this afternoon. She asked me how am I coping and that she has faith on me that I'd make it through. Yeah. That soothes me too anyway. She'll be back to work by next Monday.
Oh yeah, Elza gave me a mug. A cool mug! And the right size too. Haha. Sort of the one that I was looking for. Hehe. Thanks again Elza. ;D.
What else? Ahh. I wanna go out. Movie, beaching. Idk. Random things. I'm craving for 'fun'. Lol.
Bah I'm off. Need to do my sis essay. Hehe. She promised to iron my clothes for 4 days. Well, nothing comes free right? Most things ;)
One more thing, I wanna say Alhamdullilah cuz well..whatever obstacles I have, there are other ppl who suffer more than I do. Whatever I had so far might be just a bit of misery. Just a bit of the 'black' taste. So people be grateful. And show to those pitiful people, there are individuals who still care in this cruel world.
Goodnight. :)
