Monday, 4 January 2010
2:44:00 pm
I'm getting ready to go to bed. Just thought wanna blog briefly. Lols. Anyway, I officially hate Monday. Haha. I tried not to say this out loud. Keeping in my mind that I'd have a bad week if I say something like this. Heh. LOL.
Last Monday pun I was moody. Way too moody that I acted unreasonably selfish and jerk. Today... Well at least my mood wasn't so bad mcm last week. Not in my worst mood but still I could not help being unreasonable. And expectedly, I easily 'detect' one's mistake and teingat balik things that people had done to me. Haa. Lame. Lol. Whatever.:)
Anyway, I am being unreasonable to a person tadi. Selfish too. I'm not proud of what I did. In fact, I'm ashamed. But I'm just stupidly ego to admit my wrongs and make it up with her. Way way too silly. It is hard to say sorry to a person you really love. For me at least. Gosh. Now, here I am again, feeling like crying due to shame and guilty, regretting doing some silly stuffs. Idiotic much. Huh.
Okay whatever. I made an idiotic and disgraceful act. And I'm just too stupidly and disgustingly ego to apologise. So I would just have to swallow this guilty buldging feeling.
Haish. This silly tantrum, this is something that I never truly reveal to most people. I am rational enough to foresee what would happen when I carry out my tantrum to them. Imagine, how would you feel when you didn't mean to come late to see me and then I got annoyed and purposedly make you wait for me lama2? That is the kind of thing that I tried not to do to my friends mostly. I don't think I ever did that. Though there are times when I almost lost temper to few people that I have always considered as my 'good' people. But nehh, that would be suck. So just 'shut up'.
I'm not truly bad mood lah. Just..err,moodswing? Haha. Lol. It bothers me when I couldn't be entirely truthful bout something. Makes me feel like I'm some sort of a hypocrite. Lol.
Okay enough with the 'snappish' talk. Let see, something to look forward to. Heh. Coming Sat I'm going to pamper myself with jacuzzi and etc etc with my cousin. I'm going to sleepover at her house tarus. Hehe. I loike this one. Saya rindu kucing2 sekalian~ haha. And and jua, talking and doing some 'crazy' stuffs with my cousin. Wawaw.
Bah, I better stop. I wanna be energetic tomorrow. Goodnight then! ;)
