Wednesday, 16 December 2009
6:17:00 am
Hi. I'm here again. I just got home. And I feel a bit sleepy now. Heh. I woke up early this morning to accompany my Uncle to BIA and Diplomatic place. It was my first time going there. And briefly, I was impressed a bit with the entrance door at the Diplomatic place and the not normal lift elavator. The entrance door tu will only open with magnetic pass made with sensor while the escalator,well, I don't know how to describe it but something mcm chambers. Haha. Okay. Whatever :p
Anyway I meant to blog something last night. But I was too sleepy after chatting with Elza. Hehe. Anyway, I was in a generous and rational mood last night. And a person texted me saying congrates for getting a place at Baiduri. Among all people he is one person I less likely expect to text me that. I mean I never thought he would know. I never thought of him at all. He was indeed the first person who greeted me on my birthday but I technically did not count it in as my phone clock show it was few minutes before 12. So few minute advance does not count. Plus I did not prefer having him as the first greeter. LOL! Anyway I didn't reply his text masa tu and last night jua buttt I said thanks to him on msn. Just being nice. Lol. And he was being friendly and I tried to be as warm as I can. But I'm weak at pretending. So I gave up and said ' Okay, this is awkward. Don't u think so?'. And he said something like ia phm and its okay and bla bla and I can take my time to be ready or even meet him up,'as a fren'. Well, I told him I prefer not. Wait, I wasn't being bitchy okay. I told him that politely. And indeed I told him I do not hate and detest him that much anymore. It is just we cannot undo things. And those things he did and said to me,especially behind my back, I shall never forget them. The part he indirectly said that one day I'd ask back for our friendship and ask favor from him despite ia 'sabar' with my so called bad doings. That holds me back. Well, I'm sorry-not entirely sorry though, this is just me. I hardly forget some things. I was about to include the line 'let's just pretend we never knew each other' but I thought that might offend his ego. So I just told him goodbyes and I wish him happiness and we both have our own lives and that it seems impossible to forget the things he did and said even if I want to. Really I cannot foresee any friendship intimacy between us in the future. And yes I don't think much of him nowadays. Like.. I simply don't give a damn. Ia happy ka, sad ka, I barely feel a thing. None of my bloody business. Moreover, I was never deeply in love with him after all. Bitter and ironic. Yet that is a piece of truth. :)
Okay enough about him. Part of me wishes he would read this post so things are clear. Hence any fakeness and hypocrisy can be avoided. Lol.
So I'd start working tomorrow. And I need to find out whether on Friday I'd have work or inda. If inda Vivi and Elza wish to sleepover at my place. ;)
Alright. Till next post. Good day people:)
