Monday, 14 December 2009
6:00:00 pm
It is 1.38 AM. I need to wake up EARLY later. For second Baiduri interview. And I fucking couldn't get a sound sleep. *Forgive me for the usage of f word. Heh. It isn't everyday I use that. Thought I wanna try. Haha. Telur.
I went to bed early tadi. Around 9 ish? Almost 10 lah. And I didn't sleep well tadi. I dreamt about Pirates of Caribbean. Lol. Jack Sparrow and Davy Jones. What were they doing in my dream, I just couldn't really recall. Heh.
There were two messages on my phone when I checked it tadi. From my dearest cousin. Honestly, it is her faith on me that really soothes me in most situations. Hehe. When my confidence and self esteem are about to shatter I reach her and crave for the faith she has on me. I only stopped-almost-worrying about the baiduri thingy after texting her on fb. :)
What else? Umm, last time Sheikh talked to me, we mostly talked about relation thingy and I was a bit heran when he told me not to give up. Haha. I'm not giving up. I simply do not have the interest at the moments:) Yesterday I reread some of my post on fb and well, I smiled realizing I put someone's lines on most of them. I mean the recent ones. 'Weird but in a good way', 'Talking to you is never boring' and etc.. These lines used to put a smile on my face and make my mind go happy doppy. Lol. And now, they just give me that tingly feelings of past memories. Another closed chapter. Not a happy one, nor a sad one. If I ever get the chance, I'd love to let this someone know how grateful I am that he indirectly assisted me to get over a person, someone who I thought I couldn't live without:) We had good laughs and talks. I learnt something from him too. I learn how to 'make people sick of me'. Haha. Joke2.
I feel like talking more but NO, krg nyasal. Haha. I better be off now. Wish me luck for later! ;)
p/s: people barely appreciate us when we hardly appreciate ourselves :)
