Friday, 16 October 2009
6:06:00 pm
Okay, I'm still on this blog thingy. Haha. Lol. Somehow I do want readers for my blog. That is the intention of having a blog right? Getting people viewing your post. Or to be specific, people knowing what you gotta say. :) Anyhow and paradoxically, I haven't truly made up my mind about it. Haha. Lol!
Well at least I mentioned about me creating a blog to a person, a favourite person indeed. Mr. Amir that is. But then, I haven't given him the add of this blog so technically this blog is still 'unexposed'. Lol. Lol. Why does it seem like I'm making a fuss out of this blog thngy?? Whatever:p and I am planning to tell Vivi sooner or later;)
Okay, moving on. Let talk about synapse. Few things just made me think of synapse. Synapse is a gap where two neurones meet. Basically what it does are 1) It ensures one-way transmission 2) It increases the possible range of actions in response to a stimulus and 3) It is involved in memory and learning.
Okay, the first function has nothing to do with what I'm going to say. Well, nothing much. It's just, there are times when I seem to be sure about myself and doing the right things. Okay, short and simple, I like a person. Or to be a lil specific, I like a guy. I figured that out quite a some time already. Andddd, sensibly it is just unwise to really really like him. I made a stupid mistake anyway while 'setting' in my mind not to go on liking him a lot. I accepted my 'lost' best friend who just got dumped by his gf to get into relationship. I did try hard while doing that. I didnt really go online and when I got excited while talking to that particular someone I had to remind myself, 'I am with S and not him'. That was pushing myself. I know and I know now that was pointless.
I had my own reasons to do that. I categorised that as a 'reflex action'. This has a lot connection with synapse. In complicated ways. I accepted S's out of rationality. Like, he is my best friend*now he 'was'* and he might have known me well and would never drive me mad. Other than that I didnt want to let my mind rule brain. I did that twice and I ended up putting myself in endless misery. Anyway, I was terribly wrong. I don't have to say what truly happened between me and the ex best friend. I made the wrong choice and I paid a terrible cost for it. Fair and square:)
Another synapse connection is..at times I know better to stop yet I couldn't help myself. :) logic thinkings or sensible behaviour just doesn't get along well with desire and emotions:)
anyway, I'd stop and get back to bio application. Till next post. Salam:)
